Can't seem to tell what stage or what i'm doing

[Metal]

I'm am planning to go out a few times, as a Solution-Based-Experiment, and be kind of vague about it when I tell her... see how it goes, see what reaction I get. I think I'm going to go bowling with a guy I know, and have a beer. Kind of looking forward to it too. I do think I'm going nuts being under the stress all the time, and constantly thinking about her, and her behavior, and how I can't control it.

As a side-rant: She's got this thing now where she's listening to the radio all the time. Like Rap, and R&B, and really oversexualized teen-age kind of music. As an experiment, I've started listening to it too.. and i'm watching her reaction. Previous to this, we listened to almost all christian-rock-music. And this is really breaking my "mold" of mr.christian, mr.moral, mr.judgemental. It's crazy though seeing her get into the music, like a teenager, or rebellion, or something. I like that Sandi said that WAW's are "Bonkers". (I think about that word a lot, LOL)