Counseling.. she has agreed to it.

I have had a hard time finding "someone".

This has struck me as odd this time around.

Early Feb is when "someone" can help.

For me.. I am just not sure that is enough. I will follow thru and hope for the best.

I find the lack of "effort" on her part very.. distracting and typical.

I don't place my kids as first in my life. For this I have been found "lacking". Simply because she does.

To me.. it starts with me and her. If that is "lacking" then the cycle will continue. I may be the cause of it all.. or the "starter". But I am not sure if that is reasonable.. or fair.

Right now.. I clearly don't know how to get that point across in a manner which she understands. I thought it was clear.. but she clearly does not understand.

I suspect she feels exactly the same way.

Relax
Eat
Think
Act normal
React.. Smartly.
Do something different.
Emulate.
Do Work.

Lets get "RETARDED" in here.