My Story.

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She called to discuss D details. It got emotional. I went back to begging and pleading, though in a calmer manner. Oy.

I think it made me realize though: she just isn't the person I was in love with.

I am taking active steps to move on. I am going to talk to some women. I am going to start dating. I am going to find my own place. I am going to improve myself. I need to have something to look forward to so that I can stop looking back.

I think dating will help because it was the only thing that really stopped my jealousy when this happened to me 6 years ago.

I mean... this was a 4.5 month marriage that effectively ended a month ago. I deserve some comfort, and to be honest, I deserve to have sex with someone who wants to have sex with me.

I just have to be careful when dating to go VERY VERY SLOW.

D will likely be official by end of month.

I think the only real possibility of DB'ing this is for me to completely move on anyway.