Big talk tonight. I am a wreck, need support.

[dixiegal]

Dont beat yourself up. He called and he did say that he would do so in the future. You also did back off when you caught yourself going there...

The good thing here is that he still at home and has not left yet. So, focus on what is going and your doing right.

I know its really hard. I'm in a worse boat...trust me. But, you are aware of your actions...thats a move in the right direction!

Think of the event as a way to push your self out of your shell! Ive been where you at...you have to force yourself to be happy at those things...sounds dumb..."Fake it till you make it!"

When he calls which he will, that good news. Just be happy and dont put any pressure "talk" on him. An when he asks or if he ask how your event went. Tell him, you really had a good time. You got to meet some fun fols and etc. and then drop it.

Hope that helps a bit....I'm not expert but, I wish I wouldve know what I know now when my H was still in our home. I now the outcome would have been so different.