Am I piecing ? Just can't tell 3...

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I'm doing the mind racing thing too and my H is out of town today so I understand where you are.

LRT doing that would be a big mistake. She'd think all you've done has been fake, all your changes weren't real and she'll run. She's trying to find a place where she's not hurting, feels loved, sees happiness on the horizon. If you flip her world upside down, she'll never feel comfortable with you again. She may run to you at first but that won't last. You're too far for that. She's snuggling with you, talking to you, reading with you, wants to know your needs too... you've worked this hard to lure her back so don't cut the line. Not unless you want her to swim away and find someone who she doesn't have a bad history with, who won't hurt her, who won't make her vulnerable and then leave her. You're not in a situation where you're in LRT at all. Knock those thoughts out of your head.

You need to step back and pat yourself on the back for all you've accomplished so far and look at the positives.