Having a really hard time...

[what next?]

Ok, I think I have made a little progress (and I surely would have messed this moment up completely if I hadn't found DB lol)

She replied to my email today and is opening up a little conversation. You can tell that it is things she has wanted to say but felt like she had to be cold to keep from sending me mixed messages (she kept saying that she didn't want to send mixed messages before)

here is her email:

I don't think I've seen anything like that for you but I'll look tonight. Just give me an idea of how much you plan to spend daily or weekly so I'm not surprised to see charges every time. I have to take some time to figure out my budget & how I can split out stuff/liquidity since it's before tax refund/bonus time. Your cell bill went up $40 & is due the 31st.

Are you going to work full time for Jason? Sounds like a good move - you probably know several people there, too. Crazy you didn't get sick. Slayde is adorable. you're going to miss more snow here. Glad you're doing well.

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Slayde is my nephew (sister's kid and she used to be semi close to my sister)

What I would have replied before I found DB is something like this:

You think I'm doing well? This isn't the life I want. I want my marriage to last forever and I want you to be my wife!

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so, obviously that would have been completely wrong. But my question is this: How do I reply to this and sound ok but not give her the mindset that the divorce is best for both of us? Or do I just need to let her think that and then she can feel alone and start thinking twice about it? This is definitely the type of moment that I was messing up badly before and I want to know how I should handle it. I don't think I will reply until tonight so that I have time to get some good ideas.

I think I was so caught up in LRT that I wasn't able to see that it really wasn't working. You guys are right though... I definitely need to reestablish contact I think but just stay completely away from any R or M talk.

Or is it possible that she just has it in her head that the divorce is best for us and she will be gone? lol ...i'm tortured.