Hey Habit, I'm just thanking your for talking to me. Helping me to relate and cope. This place helps me so much and although I value the experts, the people that help most are people like yourself that are going through similar sitchs.
I don't really think I'm pursuing although I guess it could be perceived that way. I'm doing my best to validate what she says when she brings up R talk - but I just find she quickly recalls only negative experiences...even the sex stuff just upset me. I love her, and I've only ever had sex with HER, nobody else. I made mention of that again last night and she automatically took it as me bashing and not forgiving her for cheating on me when we were engaged.
It really [censored], I don't want my M to end - but I am prepared emotionally for that to happen.
Just need to stick it out, continue to be a good listener, stay focused on my changes.
It's been insane this week with 3-4 people everyday commenting on how much weight I've lost or how good I look. Feels good, I just wish I could share the joy with my W.
Me - 34 W - 33 M - 8 years T - 15 years D7, D5, D2 Bomb Nov 10/2010 "I'm not happy and INILWY" W Staying for the kids Mar 13/2011
