That's great man how do I join? She told me a few weeks ago "thing is I am not over you and I will always love you I just couldn't do it anymore. I don't hate you I just need to take care of me"
Words like that make me crack. I've come to realize that it's not so much that she left but that I hurt her so much without even knowing it, if that makes sense. The fact that my D has broken down a few times because she misses her is also extra hard on me. Sometimes I get angry at her thinking how much we hurt over this I am afraid my anger will win over. I tell you it is much easier to be angry than it is to feel like you've disappointed a person that at one time thought the world of you.
My friends use to tell me how much they wish they had a girl that felt for them like my W felt for me. Everyone could see it. After she left everyone's first response was "what did you do?" I feel as though I caused this. That is the hard part. In a way I guess I took her for granted but I never meant to I just felt so confortable with her. The one person I could really trust. She knew me better than I knew her. Every once in awhile you meet that one person and I screwed it up. See what I mean? Now I sound like a blabbering child. I have just kept all this stuff in for so long it feels good to finally let it out.
That is why some of the techniques of acting "as if" or getting a life and acting as if everything is fine might not work with her because she always felt like I didn't care anyways. I wanted her to know I was hurting to that I did care. She said “you don't know what you have till it's gone. Just please don't make the same mistakes next time around"
Anyways.....How do I join this club? Is there a thread or something?
