Lost, Thanks for the kind words. It is nice to know that we can all find strength in our pain. Unfortunately, your inspiration fell a bit today. My W called yesterday and we had a brief, but pleasant conversation about the household goods. We decided that she would come over on Saturday and pack what she wants and the movers will be here on Monday to take the heavy stuff. At the time, the conversation didn't bother me. I had a good day at work, spent the evening have dinner with my mother and went to bed feeling OK.
Then this morning came around and things went south. The alarm went off at 7am and I just broke down. I had a dream last night that we were reunited and doing some grocery shopping together. That was it, just shopping together. But, in my dream I was aware of the S and I just kept telling myself over and over how happy I was that she was back. Then the alarm went off. I turned it off, rolled over and started to lose it a bit. I never made it to work today. I didn't get out of bed until noon. Luckily, I work out of my house, so no one at my job knows what I did. Damn it!!! Every time I think I have got this thing on the ropes, it sneaks up behind me and whips my *ss. So frustrating!!! One day at a time, I guess. The only easy day here is yesterday!
Keep posting! You guys are wonderful company at night when I am in my house alone. FOBD
Hey FOBD - I'm here at my house all by myself as well. You are not alone. Don't feel too badly about having a bad day emotionally. That was me ALL last week. It comes and goes I guess as I have now had a couple of tolerable days in a row now.
I've also had a few nights where I've had similar dreams, just not grocery shopping though . And I haven't remembered any of my dreams in years! But when it happens, it seems you have to deal with the hurt, abandonment, and loneliness all over again. So I know how that feels.
I don't know how much stuff your W still has to move out of your home, but it sounds like maybe you need to really mentally prepare yourself for this weekend when she moves her stuff out. For me, after W brought the moving truck, there was something especially horrible in seeing the empty spots in the home where her stuff had been. Just kind of prepare yourself for that so that it won't be such a shock to your system as it was for me.
Keep us posted man.
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Denver
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce
. And I haven't remembered any of my dreams in years! But when it happens, it seems you have to deal with the hurt, abandonment, and loneliness all over again. So I know how that feels.
