Frustrated, Back Again, the Saga continues

[Queen_of_Swords]

Ever have that feeling, as the walked away from spouse, that you despise your spouse and just want to get away? I am very bitter atm and not thinking straight. I can't let the frustration and bitterness get to me.

I don't despise him. I hate what he's done.
I often feel like throwing my hands up and giving him the proverbial middle finger as he's done to everything we've built/created together and to me. I don't want to get away, but I do want to pretend he's dead to me for all intents and purposes. That would be easier in some ways.