Whitney, I know how you feel, I love when people respond to my posts too. How did skiing and the dentist go?

I have many moments when I don't like my XH or anything about him.

My XH is a different person than the one I married, most of the time, but I see the real H emerging more and more. Our X's are completely different and in different places, but the results are the same, hurt kids, hurt us, and so forth. It is not fun and I hate it.

You are a great man and one who will be quite the catch when you are ready, no rush!! Just know that you deserve someone who desires you and wants to be with you!! I am sure you are a hottie and are the talk of the single ladies at your kids school, it will all happen when you are ready.

I too miss being a "family" more than I miss my XH and that is sad to me, although if I remember my true H, I miss him so very much. I love being in his arms and I love him in my bed next to me, I do love him, but I love a "him" that is gone right now and might never return.

I have lots of plans this weekend and can't wait! My XH just texted me, I have had no contact with him for two days, he is thanking me for sending him job posting, since he is out of work and I come across them at my work, so I sent him a couple. I just texted back,"ur welcome, sweet dreams" It is so hard, but necessary to just be short and sweet, and not initiate anything. I am not going to pursue him!

A

Me-40
XH-44
T-21
M-18
Div-19 mo.
D-18,S-15,D-11
Bomb-7/07 EA,PA
Mvd out-9/07-to give me space
mvd back-12/07
mvd out-7/08
back with OW since 2/08
OW broke it off-1/10
in and out of tunnel and our life since!!