Luv didn't give up her ex did

[luvless]

I just want to journal some stuff that's been going on. X doesn't see kids much but he it seems that when he is "lonely" or stressed he calls looking for them. When things are going well for him he is non existent. This really upsets the kids. They are still very angry with their dad.

I've been having peaceful days mixed with sad ones. The other day I talked to my sister and she mentioned a song that reminded her of her ex bro in law. She said,"even though I hate him - I missed him for a minute..thinking that wow he is gone forever." I said, I know.

Well people I'm just working on being at peace with the change in my life. It's still hard as hell some days and I feel like I take 100 steps back sometimes but I'm getting there.


Luv