I know I'll make it, I have no choice. I just don't have the "how" figured out just yet. But I'm working on it.
StbxH is working a couple of his contacts for wood. I'm angry at myself for so badly underestimating the heating cost without wood. I may have to skip a mortgage payment. If I do, I do.
Once I have the heat figured out, then I'm going to look at part time work. I have a part time business that is capable of making me a very nice part time income IF I work it, and the harsh reality right now is that I think I'm just not in the headspace to do it. It requires a lot of initiative and follow-up and I know that I would not be very happy with myself if I had customers and wasn't treating them right. So. For now, maybe a grocery store, bingo hall, whatever ... no shame in earning honest money. Biggest problem might be finding someone who will only schedule me every second week when I don't have the kids.
I've talked to my mom and we're going to put "kits" on some of the windows and doors that I don't use to make sure that the drafts are cut way down. I'm looking into getting an energy audit done which will show me where I'm losing the most and might make me eligible for a grant program to help with the cost of the upgrades.
I'm looking at my budget with a fine tooth comb and seeing where I can save and I've called to get the grocery store flyers delivered again ... coupons here I come!
It's not ideal ... but it's better than some. And it's mine.
Thanks again all ... and Cat ... sorry 'bout the bubbles. Mum's the word
Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
