Mila - I do know about the age thing - I was around your age when it started. I also know that the commercial world is tough out there right now.
My standard of living is considerably lower - it has to be. Together we lived well, but when you split and one party goes on a spending spress, the outcome is obvious. But, as with all of us, in some ways this is the least of our worries.
I am gradually rebuilding my life, and new business opportunties are opening up to my surprise. Things have a way of happening . . But ageism, particularly for women I would say, is rampant.
They do hate themselves, but it doesn't seem enough to cause them to take positive action! Take care.