Having a really hard time...

[what next?]

Well I guess I'm just confused. I didn't find. DB until after I had moved out so there really wasn't much that I could do there. I'm trying to gal and not do anything manipulative but everything I do or don't do seems to be wrong lol. Of course I would be upset if there was om but I'm confident that there isn't one. I think that my pursuit and pleading pushed her over the edge... my 180 was to back off and now I'm stuck in a spot where I don't know how to get back to her. The only thing that I feel like I can do is wait and see. The book says to let my actions speak for me and that's what I'm trying to do. At this point all I can do is hope that what she is experiencing doesn't mat h the fantacy she had in her mind of what life would be like without me.

As far as getting a lawyer goes I just don't see the point in wasting money on a lawyer when I am OK with the way things are split. I told her the day that she dropped the bomb that if she wanted a divorce I wouldn't haggle... but I wanted the opportunity to show her that the marriage was worth saving. Maybe That was another huge mistake but it was my reaction.

So that might be why I seem passive... I feel like I pretty much did everything wrong up to the point that I moved out and since then I have been trying to lrt by staying away. I hope that my life moving forward will attract her back towards me but if not at least I'm doing what is best for me... I thought that was the whole point.