What up FOBD,
You're right... This roller coaster ride stinks! One MINUTE your up and the next MINUTE you're down.

I had a really difficult day today. I think its cause I have not seen W due to a long business trip and her going away for the weekend (5 4 days now). I feel like I need to be in fromt of her to make the changes. At the same time, I know that time and space away may make her THINK of the damgerous behaviors she is doing... Every day, every action, every reaction is a guessing game. Again ROLLER COASTER!

So I just got reading a chapter of "his needs Her Needs"... Great conversation. Almost an hour on the phone the last 3 out of 4 nights... And guess what? There are still doubts.

I believe this will go on until we truly feel that our WAW's love us and genuinly want to be with us.

In the mean time, GAL, 180, and LIVE LIKE YOU WERE DYING!!!

Tomorrow is a NEW day! CHARGE!!!!!!!!

M: 42 - W: 41 - M: 18 - T: 23 - D:16 S:14
EA - July 2010
NC w/EA - Nov 2010
Piecing - Jan 2011
I ask for div - Jan 2012
Div papers filed - Mar 2012
I move out - July 2012
Divorce final - Nov 7, 2012