E.T. phoned home!!!

[Augtan]

Thanks Angel for responding! I appreciate it. I didn't contact him all day, it was hard, but I just prayed instead.

I think I have slowed the walk down for him, I was walking pretty fast up until this last week. But, he is back in his town and back in the tunnel. Our texting last night when he got home proved that, I texted a very flirty text and got nothing flirty back, just that he got home and good night. So, now I just live my daily life, try to get by and see what happens.

Since he lost his job in September, I have offered for him to move up here and live in my condo with S15 and D11, while D18 and I live down the street with my parents. I offered this in October and again a week ago. I have no conditions attached with it, like that we would need to be together, date or anything, no pressure, but an offer for him to be in his kids lives each day and for financial reasons it makes sense. I told him last week to think about it and that he had "three really great reasons to move up here" (our kids) and he agreed. I don't think he will do it anytime soon, he is still in the tunnel and values his "friends" there more than seeing his kids grow up and being a father. But, as I see his head peak out of the tunnel further and for longer, I could see this happening by late spring if he still has no job. So, who knows.

I pushed down every feeling of contacting him today, had many battles with myself in my mind about what I could say that wouldn't be preceived as anything but friend stuff by him, but decided that any contact is pursuing him in his mind, so I did nothing!! I just miss him so much and know my real H is in there somewhere.

A