SBH, I question if you do get it because you've brought this up multiple times. I mean everyone here who is in your stage or similar has these thoughts. But for you it seems like it's your only thought. You've talked about how you had women hit on you, you've talked about the dangerous game WAS play, you've talked about how you the pace isn't fast enough, etc.
If you really "got" it, you'd kinda know. I'm not saying your aren't going to feel frustrated at times. Heck, I'm frustrated. But it is not a QUID PRO QUO situation. You aren't doing these things because you expect something. You should be doing these things to make a life change for you. And hopefully, your W will see that and fall back in love with you, etc. If you are only doing to win her back, then you will be right back here, I promise that.
I know (or at least you tell us) that you aren't this way in real life and you keep things cool around your W. But you are still having those feelings and if you don't address them then you are in for trouble, I fear.
Sandi has given a ton of great insight to the mind of a WAW.
As for the OM. She thinks about him. Heck, she probably still has feelings for him. But she is choosing to try to work things out with YOU, not him.
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
