Ready to give up

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I have not pushed transparency I am making her aware that it is a part of my needs to repair this and my new boundaries. Without pushing after her shift this morning we actually talked. No R talk just about her night and then about general stuff and planning time off with the kids. She was not defensive and i did not have to pry. She is leaning away from buying the house. I think I am seeing baby steps. I definitly think she has a midlife crisis portion. She has is surrounded by sick dying people at work,and now wants to live for today, buy the new truck be a hippie take pictures live on the side of a mountain. Mid life crisis = marital crisis.

If? If it is a fantasy addiction are there ways to address that?
She has been in so much emotional pain and has stated several times she never wants to feel like this again that I am not sure if that is it, posssible.

Time Will tell.
Thank You for the input it helps.