A slow turn

[FellOnBlackDays]

Bolt,
Well, it was more like a bail of hay than a straw. Much of my details are in my thread entitled "I failed horribly." But here are some of the important ones:

1) I can be a selfish jerk at times.
2) I worked too much and put my job first.
3) I had been battling some undiagnosed depression from the death of parent.
4) I didn't give her a child. Something she has wanted for years, but I was scared to do because of some other unresolved issues inside my own head.
5) I was drinking too much on the weekends to kill the pain of some of the depression. Unfortunately, this put quite a bit of distance between us.
6) We sucked at communicating. We always seemed to take everything to a screaming match instead of talking like adults.

Despite all of this, we did have a good marriage. We just neglected it for far too long, she got upset, asked me to make changes, I refused because I am an idiot, she left. So, here we are. I love her with all my heart and will do anything to get her to come home. DB'ing has been a life-saver. Without it, I am quite certain she would have already filed for D and I would be in a mental institution.

As for the texting, well, I just continue to let it go. Asking her about it will only make things worse. I do plan on addressing it at some point, but not right now. I seem to be reversing the tide right now and I don't want to stop the good momentum I have built up. We will see.

Hang in there!

FOBD