I am trying not to contact him too much. I think I will wait until tomorrow AM and text him for a time. If he is just wanting in the shop then I really dont care what he takes. But if he wants stuff out of the house then I would like to be prepared so it is already outside when he comes. I really do not want to see him. I would like to have a day where my emotions do not run how it goes.

I know my H well enough that he is hoping that I am a complete basket case. i need to hold it together.

As for talking to him about the porn...he just says it is because I dont put out enough. 3 or 4 times a week is not good enough. As for what he is looking at, I am not really sure if he knows how much I know. He has left it on the computer before but I am pretty sure it was a mistake. I dont think he really wants anyone to know what he looks at.

Me:35, 2 kids from PR
H: 37, 2 kids with me
T: 15 years
M: 8 years in Feb.
Second walk out: 14-01-2011
H had PA: 2007