Ready to give up

[blue2010]

I didn't know the Love dare was pursuing. I will not use it then. I see now that comforting her was not counterintuitive. However since last week she has decreased the angry tone of voice that she had when there was definitly still contact. Turns out I did comfort her when he was mean but I did not know it at the time It was a short hug and she talked very little.
Something is going on in her head. This all took place this evening.Another first: I think she has progress. Without any anger this was all talked about. She asked what i want from her I said transparency and honesty she believes in privacy, I explained the privacy vs secrecy concept. She didn't like that so I said i am open to options what do you want to do. She had no response she said she needs to let the realtor know About this house she sounds less enthusiastic about the house less I have to get out of here (this marital Home).
Second conversation I made what I want completly clear. 100% of her affection, not shared with anyone else, repair the M. Her to not buy the house. I pointed out how I was there for her this week while she was suffering emotionally. She acknowledged that. I made clear she knows what I want I said I know I cannot make up her mind for her she needs to decide. Good bye was said neither of us angry.
At one point i asked her if she wanted to fix this she did not answer. She thinks I expect an answer now so I said this took a long time to get here It will take time to fix. I said wether divorced or married whatever new relationship we have will be new not the old one it will be different. With alot of what she just said I am convinced she is at the Mid-life crisis point as well, wants a new truck(she's always wanted a truck) she wants to live for today and not worry about 40 years from now. She feels no emotion and admits she has very little to give right now she says she is even struggling with it for the kids.
So once again time will tell.
And yet I remain on the roller coaster of post EA/PA and suspicion.

Time will tell, Still keeping my kids happy which makes me happy.