On Figurative Ledge - Talk Me Down?

[Denver_2010]

Just a little journaling here about contact with W over past few days and my GAL.

I already document that I called W and had brief conversation with her on the 12th. She told me in the convo that she was filling in a lead vocalist for 3 straight nights for a disco band that she used to play with years ago.

1/13/11 No contact

1/14/11

W initiated text re a doctor’s appointment that she just had and how it applies to our insurance.

I responded that insurance should pay for it.

Later, I sent second text “Did your show go well last night?”

She responded: “yes. but I’m tired and its killing my voice. Gonna take a nap. Tow more nights like last night. ugg.”

Me: “good. Damn I wish you’d done a gig with them months ago so I could have seen u in the afro! :)”

She didn’t respond.

1/15/10

W initiated text that I later realized was probably sent out to me and probably her sis and mom, maybe some other people. Anyway, it said “SS is on his first date. Crazy! The dad went too! I like that!”

I responded an hour later: “I know!! I talked to him earlier today about it. He said he was nervous. I told him to relaz, be a gentleman, and be himself. I hope that it goes well for him. Will you let me know, or have him call me?”

W: “sure.”

My second response: “Just realized that was probably a mass text. Nonetheless, I’d like to know how it goes for him. Good luck w your show tonite.”

W: “Thanks. Should be fun. Lost my voice though, so it will also suck!”

Me: “you’ll be great...”

W: “Well I will be good enough. It’s not worth worrying over. It won’t make my voice come back. Gotta run. Have a good night.”

I didn’t reply

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My conversations with W are good in that they are more friendly than they were 5-8 weeks ago and she seems more willing to share info about what she is doing and what is going on with she and SS. But they are bad in that they are like conversations bw two people who are distant acquaintances rather than bw H and W.

I still don't understand how someone can go from being my W a mere two months ago, to someone who treats me like I am a distant memory.

baby steps...

I am GAL more than I probably let on here on these boards. I played poker with some of my best friends last night. I have plans to go to see 30 Seconds to Mars on Friday night. Played some raquetball with a buddy yesterday. Trying to stay busy.

I have plans to take SS to a DU hockey game on Saturday night. I'm wondering if I will see W when I get SS... we haven't made arrangements yet. But I'm already planning on getting my haircut this week and what I will wear... I've never been so damn pathetic in my life! What can I say, I want my W to fall in love with me again...