Oh ok--I understand now. It IS so hard, but once you do accept it, you will feel so empowered by conquering this piece--it will help you with other things.
That was my first conversation with G---about a magnetic health bracelet he wore that he swore by!
He (your H) probably did think about you teaching him about the magnets.
So what kind of job/career would you be interested in?
sg Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, LOVE never fails / DB since 2001