You seem to be in a much better place than I am emotionally but today I have decided to get up and go to church something I haven't done in years. I spoke to her Saturday night and she seems so resolute in her decision. She has dug in her heels and has accepted the divorce as part of life and learning and moving forward. When I hear words like that I feel as though all is lost that there is nothing to save and at some point you have to move forward. Sometimes I feel hanging on to hope is what is keeping me from really letting go. The conversation started pleasant about work and other things with some laughter and jokes but when it turned into the marriage talk (initiated by her)she turned cold but still she was nice and pleasant just very matter of fact. She said she is hurting but is doing good, better every day and she has learned a valuable lesson she hopes never to learn again.
