I have a serious attitude problem. Very serious. That's what I am figuring out. I am trying too hard to control the situation. Two weeks ago I'm sure people would have died to be in the situation I was in. My husband was still thinking through things, still in our house, still in our bed, still kissing me goodbye. BUT he was not showing me emotions. He wouldn't spend any time with me unless it was with other people. He would invite me to do things with the other people and what would I do? Say no and pout. I was angry because he wouldn't spend time with me (ongoing issue with the marriage because he's a workaholic). However, I had no right. I caused more damage. He's now saying he wants a divorce and that he'd be calling a lawyer last Tuesday. He didn't call the lawyer, but he stares at me with those pathetic eyes and gives me these pathetic smiles. Ugh!!!
Sometimes I need to be saved from myself. I really do. I don't know if there is any hope left. I'm obviously a very slow learner...
