Thanks for checking in. I am busy trying to accept that this is the way things are supposed to be. For what reason, I'm not sure, and may never know.
I never saw my life taking this turn. It's up to me to make the best of it.
My H's perception of our life together is his reality and it must have been unbearable for him to do what he did to his family. It's a cheeseless tunnel I need to stay away from as far as trying to figure out why his perception and mine were so different. It really doesn't matter anyway.
I am just really sad for the kids, for him, and for me...
