I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes having just read yesterday's posts from you and Virginia. You write with such honesty and transparency it really helps the rest of us to explore and reconcile our thoughts and feelings. You have a gift.
I once read somewhere that the saddest Ds are those in which both parties still love one another. I think this applies to your M; I know it applies to mine. It seems like such an incredible waste to throw that love away. I spoke with Jody (DB coach) yesterday. She said something to me that may apply to your situation as well............She said that walk aways leave their M's because they are more afraid of facing their own demons than losing the person they love.