And I guess that brings me to the biggest revelation of all in this whole week of catharsis for me. I think I have to believe in something bigger than me taking this over. I have struggled with faith my whole life, and I'm agnostic, but I am exhausted from the effort of holding this all together myself and I feel like I have to just try to cultivate trust that God or whatever power is going to make things right for me someday. I don't know what else to do anymore.
Sometimes handing things over to God or a higher power helps you to truly let go. I believe in God and have such Faith in following his will and it gives me so much peace. Whatever you believe, you have come so far and have will never go back. Just let go and let God! Just taking care of you is a great testament to loving His Child and allows some faith or belief to come to your heart.
I know many people go years on this path and even divorce and find themselves back together. I have a brother and SIL who are a testament to that fact. They were divorced for 5 years and then decided they wanted to work things out, even though they both had dated and found other loves in their life. But let this go and focus on you and continuing your growth.
Lorie W47 H48 D16 M20 H gone 11/9/10 lives w/OW
When you forgive,you heal. When you let go,you grow. When you cry to God, you surrender. When you love unconditionally, you show others Christ's love.
