Is it "too late for me?"

[TooLateForMe]

In all honesty I just wish I could call it done and walk away, smiling and wishing her the best. That seems to be the path of least resistance and I'd love to give her the gift of moving forward.

I'm like a moth to a flame. I feel "warmed" by her presence.

That sounds silly, I'm sure. I struggle to maintain some balance each day. Any sane person would have given up by now and lost all interest. I wonder if something is broken inside me. I know I can find someone who loves me completely but I still adore a woman who clearly doesn't want me.

How can I objectively decide what to do? And how do I silence my passion for her if I realize it's time to quit?

Mostly, I'm practicing a giving love and focusing on not expecting a return, that it is what I feel and it must run its course.

I do feel content in who I am and no longer "need" her. I think the next step is to practice being in the moment, to focus on myself and shoo away the errant thoughts I have of her.