And there isn't a physical change in my W. There's a change in me. She's the same, but somehow more beautiful than ever. It seems unfair that this change comes now when it could have saved my M.

Then again, I'm better for having survived the anguish of the last year or so. I really don't expect to save my M. It isn't a practical outcome, but I want it.

~Mark

Me: 38
W: 34
Together: 9yrs
1st M: may '03
1st D: april '08
1st bomb: june '08
remarried: oct '08
2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)