I'm fighting the urge to respond to W's skewed musings which she unloaded at the dinner table last night. I really felt it necessary to tell her how upset those words made me. Initially really angry, but in hindsight, just really hurtful. She seems to have lost the ability to recognize how insensitive she's become.
I couldn't respond at the time because the kids were there. But, I tried to indicate that after 16 months I was ready to look forward. I feel like I've done all I can do to acknowledge her feelings, hear her out in couples therapy, and validate what she is saying. I realize her attempts to go back are seemingly endless and I am trying to insulate myself now. I've done the best I can staying positive in the face of her constant insults, but I'm not sure I'm strong enough to put up with it much more without snapping on her. It was just weeks ago that I felt much more detached and able to deal.
