Susan, I am in tears for you, really, I am!! I have no idea what kind of world this is, but it is one that has created people such as your STBXH and that is just beyond sad. I am so sorry this is what you are living and is your reality! You will get better each and everyday, and you will one day be whole enough to find someone who is healthy and as great as you are to start a new life together! My thoughts and prayer are with you!

A

Me-40
XH-44
T-21
M-18
Div-19 mo.
D-18,S-15,D-11
Bomb-7/07 EA,PA
Mvd out-9/07-to give me space
mvd back-12/07
mvd out-7/08
back with OW since 2/08
OW broke it off-1/10
in and out of tunnel and our life since!!