"I can't initiate contact..."

Why not?

You could always say that you'd prefer to meet face to face to discuss things. Keep things light and maybe act "as if" you are fine with the D. Have your requests in place.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER