Wow. I think you need a couple of weeks to absorb everything from the visit. Do you miss HER or being with her and your girls? You got a face-to-face reminder of what you've lost... plus her physical changes... I imagine that was really, really hard. But I think if you take some time to absorb it and not react to it all now in the middle of this flashback euphoria, you would get better footing and make better choices in DB. Especially if you feel her pulling away again.
Loved what you said about the end of movie - I felt the same way when I saw it.
Me - 38, 2nd M, no living children, 1 forever 6 yr old boy H - 44, 3rd M, twins 16
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