To be honest I've gotten to the point were I've almost seperated myself into 2 different people. There is the emotional me (I used to be brutal, crying at the drop of a hat) and now the person who is focused on his "goals" specifically being more thoughtful, calm and caring as well as "GAL" and trying to forget that person I used to be.
Obviously at some point I will need to re-connect with my emotions, and the challenge will be doing in a constructive way that simply adds to the person I have become.
I've also started to become comfortable with the thought that the person I am becoming can be happy, healthy and successful without my W and without my M if necessary. Even a few weeks ago I don't think I could say the same thing.
I'm also trying to be realistic with the fact that my W is inititating R talk, not reacting to much to the positives. I think the fact that she still mixes in some "digs" at me help me to stay grounded.
Now the question is, if she truly comes around and tells me she wants to work on the M and R how will I deal with that? Hopefully the cool, calm, collected, thoughtful and caring me will be there and not the slobbering emotional idiot.
Me - 34 W - 33 M - 8 years T - 15 years D7, D5, D2 Bomb Nov 10/2010 "I'm not happy and INILWY" W Staying for the kids Mar 13/2011