One other comment. I noticed ATE that your WAS is doing something similar to mine. Wanted me to be the one to initiate the divorce. For a long long time. I doubt that's the case now, but whatever...
My reason for posting? A suggestion: divorce her. Take the offensive and divorce her. Don't wait to be bludgeoned to death by limbo. It is as simple as this: she doesn't want to be married to you any longer. The other lies and reasons and thoughts about being friends and all that other horse-crap? Well, it's worthless. How do I know? Because I spent a very long time thinking that she was the old her, when she was the new her that I didn't know or figure out because I was too busy not wanting to see it. I wanted to make it work and was willing to be lied to.
To do it over again? I might do it the same way knowing me. But I highly recommend not. She doesn't want to be there. She is filing for divorce. It is no longer about "us" but about you. Do this for you. Give yourself permission to love you more. Don't wait.

AJM


"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK
Put the glass down...
"Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world
Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."