DB'ing but it's a daily struggle - need support.

[Bolt]

but it isn't all fun and games...
Remember the next rule about when she starts opening that door and showing little signs that the R is on the right track. Don't do backflips and get too excited because all that will do is cause disappointment and feelings of rejection when it doesn't continue.

I speak from experience...

Why can't I take it for what it was?

We had another great day yesterday. We have a bible study and we got along great. She's been playful with me as far as verbal jabbing - something I do to everyone and love to have it done to me. Things were great.

And then the night happened and all I was looking for was a touch. Of course, when that didn't happen, I got upset and went downstairs.

Damn that old self rearing it's head!

I came upstairs around 6am and she asked why I slept downstairs. I was a little cold and needed a little time to calm down because I wasn't in the right frame of mind.

We eventually talked and I told her how I was feeling (I think now a mistake). She nailed it when she said that she is still healing and thought things were going great. But it wasn't enough for me.

I can't tell her that what she is feeling is wrong because she was right. Why can't that be enough for now? I honestly don't want things to be "honkey dorey" and back to "normal".

How do you guys handle this?

She gave a great analogy. She said that maybe subconsciously, she is testing things. She's opening the door just a little crack for me. When I see that, I want to slam it open and she's not ready for that. I think she may be right. I DO want to take it slow but when we do, I want it to happen faster...

We talked it through and I think we have a better understanding of where each other is coming from. She even gave me a kiss before she left for the day - something that has been very rare. I just want to keep the train going. A meeting with the MC today will hopefully help.

any advice??