I failled horribly...

[Denver_2010]

FOBDs - I think that sounds like a great meeting with your W! Baby steps, baby steps. Your conversation with your M was inspiring for some reason and your words about how you still feel about W could have come out of my mouth.

"my mother asked me today if I still loved her. I told her that I still loved her with all my heart and would still do anything to bring her home. I wan to take my last breath in her arms if life will grant me that wish. She replied, "well, you know what you have to do then, right?" I said no. She replied, "Son, you are going to have to gamble your heart one more time." She is right. I am going to have to commit my heart and soul to DB'ing and roll the dice. She will either come home or I will again be crushed like a grape. But even if I end up crushed again, at least I will walk away knowing that I did all I could to save my marriage and that I was the bigger person in this whole thing. I will either get my wife back or get my dignity back along with a guarantee that I will not have to live with regret for the rest of my life. "

I am willing to get crushed like a grape a few more times over the course of the next several months if it means that I have a chance at getting my W back. As bad of a feeling that it is, I believe that I am strong enough to endure it.

Stay in touch FOBD

Denver