Detachment is a long drawn out process and it take a little at a time. You measure by the amount of time you spend daydreaming about the W or Sitch, by the amount of rollercoaster cycles of pain, anger, sadness and calm you experience. Slowley over time the bad things recede, to where you can at least concentrate on your work or things you enjoy and you actually experience intervals where the W and the Sitch are not in the forfront. They never fully go away, and from time to time you will find your thoughts and emotions drifting back to an unpleasant place, but at least you can begin to function in life and assume an objective outlook for yourself. The most difficult thing for me is the waiting. When is she going to serve me D papers? or When is she going to begin to emerge from the fog? It's only been since Oct24, a microsecond really in MLC time, so you have to realize eventually you must continue to live as if either has happened, onward we must go. And I wish I would take my own advice.
Me 53 XW 50 M 18 Years +2 S14 D19 Bomb 10-24-10 Served 1-27-11 Mediate 4-21-11 Civil D Final 6-2-11 No church anullment "A man is not finished when he is defeated, he is finished when he quits."
