H in crisis and self medicating with OW

[nicole8]

Yep it happened again. My h has been home for just over four weeks now. He left this last time for about four weeks. He seems different. Just before he came home we got an offer on our house. I think this was an awakening of sorts for him. He instantly wanted to find a new house and we did find one. We've made an offer and things are moving along smoothly. The ow appears to be out of the picture. I don't have any way of verifying.... Except by asking her. I don't want to do that.

My h seems different and really seems to be trying. He talks about us doing things together now... And the future. He gave me a gift certificate for a nights stay at a resort for us. In the card he apologized for everything he has done to me and can't begin to apologize for it all. And that he cares for me and can't begin to tell me how much I mean to him. He signed love, mr Nicole. This is the nicest most sincere thing he has done in over a year. I'm not sure what to make of it.

My h seems to be in betters moods if he is working or we spend time together. The days he doesn't work seem to bring out the "blues" in him. He has bad dreams and told me the other night that he doesn't know why his head is so f'd up. I asked what I could do and he said nothing that it was on him and he had to deal with it. He has been to a dr twice for depression but won't talk about it

I am still on edge. I'm trying not to double or even triple guess everything single thing he does. I have no clue if he is talking to ow.... Not sure if I should bring it up. Don't think it will bring a positive light to our relationship and the positive steps we have made. So at this point i am moving one day at a time.