they really come back

[mdoodles]

kinda makes me happy to hear u want to be at the point im at---means ive really come so far and to a good place...this is the funniest part - last night h only wanted attention from me and i kept backing away from him (son does not know about any of this, it is after he is asleep)...and i back away thinking about how much i miss my exboyfriend...that alone makes me smile to think how far i have come and how it is truly possible to move on and find someone u might possibly love just as much if not more...its almost crazy to experience it. if i reread my old posts, wow. ive come a long way...

u will too sanderika, u will. one day it will all just click...the best thing i did was move out of that house into a new environment. is it possible for you to do that too? i live in a wonderful community, all people in our situation, lots of kids. and it is beautiful, so moving from my big house didnt hurt as much...i have made so many wonderful new friends and i really enjoy myself here...

dont get me wrong, i still have nightmares about psycho ow and their baby and getting emails from my lawyer about finalizing this still hurts in a way. but its not the same. im further removed from it.


h is emailing me now as i write this...he is bizarre..no matter who he ends up with, he will never be faithful. it wasnt about me, its about him. and im sure thats the case with your h too..

hang in there sanderika.