K, I know how you are feeling!! I had a very rough converstaion today with XH and feel awful! I too hate my situation at times and get bitter, but try so hard not to.
XH chose this for us and he has no consequences, me and the kids have all of them. I read about making it all about me, about making a list and making that life happen for you, all that stuff...but when it comes to the day to day crap, I am just sick of it. I feel do down and out and see no financial way to get back up.. as I didn't finish college to marry XH, I had a baby right away so I didn't ever get a career off the ground, I had two more babies and was a stay at home mom for 16 years, then XH decided that he wants OW and not us anymore and dumps us!! I presumed that I would be married forever, isn't that what you are suppose to do when your married? I assumed that he loved me and cared for me and the kids enough to do right by us, and I assumed wrong!! I really don't care anymore that he is in MLC!! I am sick of it all and just want a normal, good man in my life again, one who is healthy and knows what "family, love and commitment" really mean and is man enough to stay faithful and be good to his wife. My XH made this family with me willingly, he got out of it and that is fine (although I was raised it isn't fine no matter the excuse), but I want a man who won't do that and I deserve it!! I am angry today, due to issues with D18 and XH, but I know it will pass.
Stay strong K!! Whether he pays child support or not, he can help you with the extras that come along when supporting kids, I haven't seen a child support order yet that covers all of everything the kids need!! I pray and pray it will all get better and I am sure it will, cause if it doesn't I don't know what I will do or where I will be!!
A
Me-40 XH-44 T-21 M-18 Div-19 mo. D-18,S-15,D-11 Bomb-7/07 EA,PA Mvd out-9/07-to give me space mvd back-12/07 mvd out-7/08 back with OW since 2/08 OW broke it off-1/10 in and out of tunnel and our life since!!
