I know that you are proud and don't want to ask H for money. You really shouldn't feel bad asking him to help financially....he is responsible for creating all of this mess in the first place...have you talked to a lawyer?...maybe a formal separation agreement with some spousal support could be worked out....
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO