Well here I am now. Moved over from DBD

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Well it has been a while since I posted. February is almost here and that will be my one year mark for being divorced.
And as pathetic as this sounds, I still hurt. Even with a new girlfriend I still think of my XW. Not a good situation to be in.

Had a major backslide a few days ago. Our old neighbor who we knew for 22 years passed away. Went to the funeral and my XW was there. She was my X's good friend for years. I sat next to my Son and my X was three feet off to my left sitting all by herself. Afterwards I walked towards her to give her a hug and she backed away as if I had leprocy. Asked me not to touch her and that we had nothing to talk about.

Talk about cold! I havent seen this woman in ages and she still acts like she is angry at the world whenever I am around. I may see her once every three months or so if that. But I know that I should not have even looked at her much less try to talk to her. My mistake.

She got everything she wanted with her divorce. You would think she was finally happy. So why is so so angry towards me? Is it because I encroached onto her existance or because she is still dealing with some middle aged demons or her own guilt? Only she knows I guess.

Yes I know the healthy thing to do is to not even care what she thinks or feels. She should be irrelavent to me by now. But she was and still is a big part of my life. I cant stop thinking about her.

On a side note, my GF and I are getting along pretty good. We had a few bumps but I am trying to make it work. I did have to put up some boundries with her though. Sometimes there is just too much drama there and I wonder if this relationship will last. On the plus side she now no longer wants to marry. So we are on the same page finally.