"Weigh everything carefully because the road to D is filled with hurt and pain."
Yes I know.
The issues have become the differences in the way people think. I get that. But it is hard to argue with someone that does not get what a physical LL means. It feels so dirty to try and talk thru it. I thought when we got back together in 2008 that I was clear. I know she understood the majority of it.. but she did not fully understand. I guess what I came away with from tonight's conversation with her was this.
Even though I am "doing" things.. they don't hit the mark. While I think I am doing things that should fill the "love bucket" up.. they just are not. This is what makes me not understand. I have tried different things. I am reasonably creative.. but it just is not "doing" things for her. So.. I "see" the cycle.. but can't do anything to change it.
For example..
I need to "get some" for my love bucket to fill up. But when we got back together she said she needed to feel "not pressured".
She needs to "see" me doing things with the kids. I am not good at this. That fills up her love bucket.
My kids don't lack for much. But I am missing the mark somewhere.
That about sums up my thoughts for tonight.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
