Seriously, you are going to feel a bit attacked if enough people start reading this particular thread. Please understand, so you do not feel alienated, that the folks here CARE and they are trying to make sure that you make sound decisions when you are not thinking clearly.
I am not saying that you shouldn't be working on improving your R, but what I am saying is that I completely echo Bond's thoughts and you need a L and you need to protect your rights with the children. Please, please, please, if you listen to nothing else, listen to Bond.
