Antonia - I KNOW EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think we all do. Everyone telling us to detach, GAL - and you try! And you do! but it isn't the same because there is always the lingering pain...simmering in the back of our brain.
How many times in the last couple months that I have had my closest and dearest friends/family tell me I am not the same, I have changed. They don't like this change. I am not always smiling, happy, laughing and making everyone around me feel good. I am not this person anymore. I am not carefree like I used to be.
I am still figuring out who I am. Change is not a bad thing, just different and friends and family will get used to it eventually.
I think time is the answer to your feelings. time will give you clarity. YOUR LIMBO will pass eventually.
Just keep doing what you are doing and one day you will smile because you will not be outside looking in any longer. You will be the new you and you will be happy.
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12
