W decided not to come and visit which was fine. We had one longe conversation about the R and I ended up telling her that she was making a lot of mistakes by shutting everyone that loved her out of here life. It got heated, and was perhaps a mistake, but a couple days later she told me she thought there was some validity to what I'd said, and rather than come see me she would visit family. While not what I wanted, I consider it a positive outcome.
We didn't talk for a couple weeks then today she emailed me about her job. She is worried. I'm not sure if her worries are founded, but she is worried.
Later in the day she called. I told her I was worried about my job too, which is true and that I'm going to try to sell my house. She told me I should move down there. She also joked that we should run off to Nicaragua. These are good signs, but nothing more.
Truth be told I want to move back to her state. I find myself missing the sun and my old haunts. I've been dating a lot and I try to visualize myself with my dates in my house there. I can see it. So while I want my W back, I also want to be home, with or without her.
I take it as a good sign that she suggest I move back. I want to tell her "yes, I can't wait to be back there", but something keeps me from it. I still want her to say, "I want to try again". Perhaps this is too much to ask. Perhaps her telling me, repeatedly, that she misses me and wants me to move there is the best she can do.
Regardless this is a 6-10 month project. I have to sell a house here before I can even think of it.
M:37 W:34 M:4 years T:6 years No Kids A disclosed - 9/1/2010 W asks for separation - 10/19/2010 Moving on - 10/24/2010 A ends (and I believe her) - 12/2010 Content - 3/1/2011 Served - 3/18/2011 D Day - 6/20/2011
