Wow, that's crazy. I can't imagine all that snow. It doesn't snow here, so the only way I get to see snow is to drive 2-3 hours up to the mountains.
I'm glad you are standing up to H now. You have been nice to him in order to not rock the apple crate for so long (which was fine when you had your marriage saving goals), but now that he wants nothing to do with it, you have to continue to tell him as it is. Just keep driving the fact that for S's sake, he needs to be all in 150%, or just get out when it comes to being a dad. This inconisistency seems more damaging to S than if he just wasn't there at all.
Regarding the dreams and wanting a guy, that's completely understandable as we are by nature companion creatures. Is this guy your thinking about even an option (when the D is complete and you are emotionally ready to move forward)? Is he available and someone that could be a good role model for S? Not that you just can't dream, but you just wouldn't want to become too attached to an idea, if it's not even a possiblility (esp when it's an actually person as compared to just some made up dream guy).
Glad everything is going well. Hope you are not too hurt from your falls. BTW, how is S doing with his nightmares? Is he still waking up every night?
Me 27; H 28; S 2 Togeth 9; M 4 Sep 11/14/08 EA OW1 Sep 08 EA OW2 Mar 09 EA OW3 Jun 10
